The to do!

 The things I want to be prevent me from- 

being what I have to be

doing what I have to do

becoming what I need to

-I am never present

I am always thinking about how to… 

And getting it done

I am always working on it

Leaving no room for a breather or play-to be had when results are visible, I say

Saying to myself 

I don’t deserve happiness until I get there

You won’t be happy until then is my motivation

-if you are not happy now, you won’t be then! is a fact

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The to do list!

The long to do list pressures me to do more 

I miss out on the actual happenings 

Their impact on me

I miss out on the fact that I have to be in what I do happily!

The future longings,

the how to get theres and what to do

keep me from being in every moment of it!

I get so lost and entranced

Wanting the not yet heres so bad, I 

Don’t appreciate my present actions, now

It’s time to slow down

To be here, right now!